Broken Souls – Chapter 49

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Lura Syllana

I spend the next several days reading and rereading the book, trying to puzzle out the notes, and doing a lot of chores required for my hours. I knocked out quite a few doing six hours a day. There are quite a few notes in here that tell me what I should focus on for passing the test. It is like the person who wrote the notes provided us with a cheat sheet. What he says about the journey in the notes seems to be personal, as if he lived through what was written in the book. It really makes me wonder how life was like back then, living in the presence of gods.

All four of us, Biremeril, Ralodan, Melyis and I, take the test at the same time and all pass without getting a question wrong. Unfortunately, we had to hand the books back.

Thankfully, level one is taught by a stray, Haemyish, and she is far more helpful than Olizara. Unfortunately, the book we are given is The Light of the World by Mathienne Naesalor instead of Terel. Sadly, Terel is said to be dead, so we can’t go to him for answers. He died a while after the Angel Akrasiel sacrificed himself. His death was a mystery in and of itself. He was one of the strongest in the Light, so he should’ve lived for a long time. In fact, most of the original disciples of Akrasiel are still alive, including the High Mother, Mathienne Naesalor, the author of the current book. I heard that Damaris is one of her closest disciples, along with Mother Vedana Oddheart and Mother Nostra Longswitch. The latter two were also among the original disciples of Akrasiel, along with Riluaneth Waeszeiros, Colvardonn, Anfather, and Amaranthae. All of them are of the ranks of Mother and Father. Strangely though, the High Father, Arbelladon Warmspear, and several other Mothers and Fathers, including Chaetris Rapidbirth and Fylson Greran, were not among the original disciples of Akrasiel and weren’t even with the church at the time of his presence.

The book was written by the High Mother and is quite interesting and teaches about the history of the church itself. Some of it overlaps with Terel’s book, but it also goes into detail of the time after Akrasiel and even Terel’s deaths. Detailing the creation of the Paladin order and how the ranks of the church were formed along with the election of each High Father, including Arbelladon, which is strife with controversy. It was between him and Anfather; however, it was rumored that he won over Anfather because of rumors that Anfather was in a relationship with an Accepted, although they were later proven to be untrue.

I was completely shocked to find that there are notes hidden deep within The High Mother’s book as well, and they must be by Terel also. They’re in the same handwriting as Terel’s and it’s a bit different from the High Mother’s. Shockingly, they question the church’s decision to outlaw attachments and relationships. Are these Terel’s notes? He wasn’t alive when this was publicized. What if it’s actually Mathienne’s notes? Maybe she also has secrets. Or maybe I’m thinking too much into it… I really need to get my hands on the rest of those books.

All three, Biremeril, Ralodan, and Melyis, also have the same notes. After class one day, all four of us decided to approach Haemyish about it.

“I’m not surprised you four can see the notes,” Haemyish says as she considers us. “Sister Damaris has an uncanny knack for recruiting people who seem to have whatever qualities or traits that Terel was searching for when he placed the charm on the books.”

“So, he did write the notes?” I ask, trading glances with the other three.

“I take it none of you have read the hidden books, then?” she asks. All four of us shake our heads no. “They’re in the hands of someone else.”

“Well then, we can’t talk any more of this until you have. None of it will make sense otherwise. So, I advise that until you can read the books you focus on passing the test. You already know what you need to focus on since you have the notes, but if you need help, you’re more than welcome to come to me.” she says.

We all nod and make our way out. “That’s exactly what Sister Damaris said…”

“You spoke to her about it?” Ralodan asks.

“Yes… It was a while ago.” I say with a nod. My eyes go wide. “Oh, I nearly forgot. She confirmed it was Terel who wrote the notes. At least in the first book, but I don’t see how he could’ve written them since the book was published after his death.”

“And you’re telling us this now!” Biremeril says with wide eyes, pulling at his curly, black hair.

“Yeah, I forgot with all that was going on,” I say.

“Well, we all assumed that anyway, it’s not like it’s anything new,” Ralodan says.

“We need to get our hands on those books,” I say.

“Why don’t we just talk to Charinva and get them from her, or at least one or two? How many are there, anyway?” Ralodan asks.

“Who is Charinva again?” Melyis asks.

“Another stray,” Ralodan says.

“I don’t know. She’s rather stubborn,” Biremeril says.

“We should go to my dorm first and grab Chalia. She is good at convincing people to do things,” I say.

“What if she won’t give them to us?” Biremeril asks.

“She will, or at least one or two books we can share amongst each other,” Ralodan says with that confident smile, and I believe he can convince her if not Chalia. That smile can convince anyone. 

Biremeril reluctantly agrees and we head back to my dorm to find Chalia just getting back from her own class. “Hey… Didn’t realize we were having a party. I would’ve put on my nice brown robes.”

“We want to confront Charinva and convince her to hand over the books.” I spit out.

“Or at least one or two of them. We don’t need all of them just yet,” Ralodan says.

“Okay, let’s do it then, but I get first dibs since I’ve been waiting longer for them,” Chalia says.

We all agree, and Ralodan adds his own two cents. “We should probably just go in order of arrival, so Biremeril should get them next and then me, then Lura, and lastly Melyis.”

“That seems fair,” Biremeril says.

“I suppose,” I say with a sigh. That means I will have to wait for all three of them to finish the next book before I can even begin reading it. That might take forever, depending on how long it is. At least I’ll get them before Melyis, which is a petty thought.

We all follow Chalia to Charinva’s room down the hall. Chalia doesn’t even knock before barging in, and she’s fast enough to duck before a book comes flying out of nowhere and hits poor Biremeril right in the forehead. Thank the Light, it wasn’t me this time.

“Seriously!” Chalia snaps at Ochilysse. “You nearly broke Biremeril’s nose!”

She only shrugs. “Next time knock! You’re just lucky it wasn’t a knife.”

“You are insane,” Chalia says as she forces Biremeril’s hand away and looks at the bump growing on his forehead as tears water his cheeks. “Fortunately, it’s just a little bump. You should be fine. Maybe we can get Haemyish to heal it. She’s pretty skilled.”

“What do you all want?” Ochilysse asks.

“We came to speak with Charinva. It doesn’t concern you,” Chalia says, her annoyance showing.

“Go ahead,” the other girl says, never glancing up from her book.

“We want the books. You have to share. You’ve had them forever,” Chalia says.

“Maybe a simple please would work better, Chalia,” Ralodan says as he steps past. “What she meant to say is, may we please see the first book or two?”

Chalia rolls her eyes. Charinva puts a bookmark between the pages and snaps the book shut. Her face seems to contort in contempt. “You can have them all. I’m done with them. I don’t even want to look at them anymore. I still can’t believe what I read. It’s… I’m lost for words. It’s absurd. It’s blasphemy. It’s… It’s very likely true, which is… I don’t know what to believe anymore.”

“Is it really that bad?” I ask and my teeth bite into my lip.

She looks up at me with eyes that look strained and tired. Has she slept at all? “I can’t really tell you, but just take everything you know and throw it into the trash. What these books say change everything.”

She goes over to her chest and pulls out six very thick books. “The first one is just another copy of The Light’s Embrace. The second one is Terel’s Revelations. Then the following are secrets told to him by Akrasiel. Book one is Truths of the Cosmos. The second book is called Divine Secrets, part one. Book three is Divine Secrets part two and lastly, an Encyclopedia. You need to start with Terel’s Revelations before moving to the Truths of the Cosmos and so on. Read each book in order. It makes more sense that way. If you have any questions, don’t ask me. Ask someone else. Maybe Damaris or whoever. I would like to forget I read them.”

“How could they really be that bad?” I ask.

Charinva only shrugs. “Not bad, but what is written in them is hard to comprehend and even harder to accept. Tread carefully, if at all.”

The rest of us trade disparaging looks with each other. I finally speak up. “So, I guess Chalia will take them first, then… Ochilysse?”

We all look over at her. She rolls her eyes. “Fine, I’ll read them. I won’t be quick about it.”

Half of us roll our eyes. “I wonder who else still needs to read them,” Chalia asks.

“Let’s find out after we finish with them,” I say.

That earns a smile from Chalia. “I quite agree.”

“So, after Ochilysse gets them, then Biremeril, then Ralodan, then me, and then Melyis? Does that sound okay?” I ask.

Everyone nods. Ralodan speaks up. “So, I guess we should probably just focus on completing the levels as quickly as possible so we can put ourselves in an excellent position within the church to prepare for when we finally get the books.”

“That sounds like as good a plan as any,” I say. Biremeril, Melyis, and Ochilysse all nodding. “I’ll help Chalia move the books to our dorm, and then we can get to it. That and get those Light-forsaken chore hours done.”

The others all sigh, but agree.

“Don’t cheat and start reading the books before me, Lura!” Ochilysse says.

“Don’t worry. I have plenty to do until it’s my turn,” I say, then look over at Charinva. “Say, Charinva… Would it be possible to borrow some of your books on Arcane spells?”

“Sure, why not,” Charinva says, then nods over to towers of stacked books in the corner of the room. “Have a look and take what you like.”

“Can we also have at it?” Ralodan asks.

“Yes, I don’t mind, but I want them all back!” she says, as she grabs the book she was reading and returns to it. Everyone besides Chalia sifts through the stacks of books. I find a few on basic Arcane spells and figure I should start there.

We all help Chalia get the books back to our dorm. They’re quite heavy and thick. Then I go with Ralodan, Biremeril, and Melyis to study our current level. With Terel’s notes in the back of Mathienne’s book, we make quick work of studying.

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Broken Souls – Chapter 48

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Bothvar Beorcolsson

I travel back with Amalasontha back as we head to her village because I’ve decided to pay my respects to Tonna. Forsa village isn’t all that different from Stormfront. It lies directly south across the bay from Stormfront. I have never actually been here before, but like Stormfront, the town is protected by a giant wooden wall that separates the buildings from the woods. They have two separate harbors; one is on the side of the bay that is directly across from Stormfront and the other looks out to the sea. The seaside harbor is less protected and therefore only takes in visitors while the bay holds all of their ships. The village itself is nowhere near as big as Stormfront but is not small by any means. Mostly women with only a few men who I presume are most likely slaves.

The women gawk and stare as we walk in. They must not see many men aside from their slaves. I follow Amalasontha all the way to their hall where the body of Tonna lies, along with the other fallen warriors. I see two women I remember from my wedding. Amalgunda, the chief if I am correct, who looks slightly older now with her golden hair showing streaks of white. She still has the dignity of a leader as she sits up straight in her throne-like chair. Or at least the closest thing to a throne aside from the chair that the other woman I recognize sits in. Their matriarch, Dasyra Ragnarsdottir, who doesn’t seem to be a day older than she was at my wedding. Of course, the wedding was only just over a cycle ago. I continuously forget that. It seems like a long time ago.

Behind Dasyra is another woman I recognize. The same woman I sat with at the docks during the All-Clan Meeting who also came to my wedding, Almedha Dasyrasdottir. She, like all the rest, grieves for the fallen. All three women look upon me with hard eyes. None seem to be sure of what they see.

“Mother Dasyra, Chieftess Amalgunda. Bothvar, son of Earl Beorcol of the Kraken clan, has joined us in honoring our fallen sisters and daughters who gave their lives in battle,” Amalasontha says. Both of the women stare at me long and hard. Even Almedha seems to be in disbelief.

“This couldn’t possibly be the same man we saw get married at the end of fall just one cycle ago,” the Chieftess says.

“It is him,” Dasyra says with those eyes that seem to glow like an emerald under the light of the moon. “He has changed much. I see he’s been eating the glow mushrooms. They leave the skin that dark color. Your weapons, is that Nedraetium?”

“I don’t know what that is, but I crafted these weapons with the glow ore I found in the mountain. The same place where the glow shrooms are,” I say.

She half smiles. “Nedraetium is what the dwarves call it. Their mountains are rich with it. Unfortunately, it is too heavy for most humans to lift. But you seem to have no trouble.”

“I did when I first found it. Couldn’t budge it. But I grew strong during my self-exile,” I say.

“Right. I’m sorry to hear about your brother. It is tragic,” the Matriarch says.

“He’ll live on within his children. I’ll make sure of it.” I take a deep breath. “I’m sorry for the loss of your fellow Valkyrie. During the battle, I wish I had been more disciplined. If I would’ve stayed back, they might still be alive.”

“Don’t be foolish, child. You are not to blame. The blame rests solely on the Bone Eaters. Tonna died so that the rest of our people can continue on to live. She will be remembered for her sacrifice and the younglings will know that she paid with her life to make sure they get to live theirs. That is the reason we fight, is it not? To provide and protect the ones we care about?”

“It should be…” I admit as I shift my eyes away.

“Well, we can’t fault you for wanting revenge. I know above all that the lure of revenge can be rather tempting,” Amalasontha says with a bitter tone. Her hand clenches her sword at her belt. “Sometimes it takes a journey with young cubs to remember what is important. One must not forget it is the next generation that we must protect. It would do no good to die seeking revenge and leave the future of our own people unguarded.”

“Right, you may be, but I still think justice must be exacted,” I say.

“Do you not know the difference between justice and revenge, young Beorcolsson?” the Matriarch asks.

“Is there a difference?” I ask.

“Perhaps. Talk to me again when you find out the answer,” she says. Leave it to a woman to always leave questions unanswered.

Dasyra turns to Amalasontha. “Now that you are here my child, let us lay to rest those who made the ultimate sacrifice.”

Amalasontha nods, clasping her fist against her chest. Dasyra and Amalgunda rise up and make their way past. I follow Amalasontha and Almedha behind them as she joins the women to lift up and carry out the bodies of Tonna and the others.

They head out onto the ice-cold docks facing the sea, where several small boats decorated to honor their dead are placed on the frozen ice. Amalasontha and the others lay the dead upon their final resting place within the boats. Dasyra stands in front of the crowd, made up of mostly women. “Today is a sad day. A sad day indeed, for we have to say our last farewell to those we know to be family. Some see them as daughters, others as sisters. Some even see them as lovers, but we all share a bond of kinship with these brave fallen warriors. They stood against those who seek to harm us. Not only did they stand against them, but because of them we all get to live another day in peace. Because they sacrificed their lives, we may live to see tomorrow. We owe them a life that is worthy of such a sacrifice, and I will demand of you that you live your life to earn that sacrifice. Remember their names and who they were. Carry those memories and share them with the next generation so they can be immortal within our hearts. For they still live and dine in the halls with our beloved Fridgerd, the mother of us all. Now, say your goodbyes for now, but not forever. For one day we will meet again in the next life when we too must make the final sacrifice to ensure our people live on.”

Everyone bows their head with their fists against their chest. I follow their lead and show my respect. Then the women kiss their fingers and raise them to the heavens above as I do the same. “Now, my children, let us send our fallen to the halls of our beloved Fridgerd so they can dine with our ancestors and watch down upon our people.”

Archers light arrows, notch, and draw. A teary-eyed Amalasontha gives them the command and they release, lighting the sky in flame before they set fire to the dead. Their flames light up the darkness, melting the ice until their lights are taken by the gods above.

Amalasontha falls to her knees and weeps. Just as I am about to turn to leave, something happens. The clouds part, and a light shines down on the sea. The women all gasp and point out. It’s like the real Valkyrie themselves came down from the heavens to take the sisters home with them. But just as soon as it comes, the light is gone, and snow rains down as if the skies themselves wept.

As the women say their farewells, the harbor empties for all but Amalasontha. I walk up to her and put my hand on her shoulder. She lets out a long breath before she climbs to her feet. “I wish it was me instead.”

“I understand. No parent should weep for their child.”

She looks up at me. “You’re an honorable man, Bothvar. Tonna knew that to be true, and she had the best judgment of the character of others.”

“That she did. I will never forget the day we met as children. She helped me prevent my brother and his friends from killing a little rabbit. She always had a heart of gold.”

Amalasontha smiles. “She told me that story. You and her share the same heart. I take warmth in knowing you carry that same warm heart on. Do not let it grow cold, Bothvar. Keep it warm.”

“I’ll try, but it is hard.”

“I know that all too well. Now come, join our feast to celebrate the lives of the fallen. Of my daughter,” she says.

“I cannot. I must go back. Feels like it is time to return home. I have been gone far too long. Even though I didn’t succeed with the goal I set out to achieve, I have found something better instead. With a new purpose, I will return to my family. I will honor Thorkel in another way. I will make sure his child lives on to carry on his name and legacy. And I would like to see my own wife and child. I’ll make sure no one forgets Tonna’s name, nor the other fallen.”

She nods, her face shows compassion and respect. “That I can respect. Cherish them, Bothvar. You will never know when it is time to say goodbye.”

I nod and hold out my hand. She takes it and meets my eyes. “I hope we meet again, Bothvar, son of Beorcol, but under different circumstances.”

“I feel the same.” With that, I let go and head into the storm.

Snow comes down as if the sky is mad. The tears of the clouds are frozen with a vengeful pain. It isn’t just cold; it is so cold that by the time I got to the river the water is completely frozen over all the way to the bottom. I’ve never seen anything like it. I’ve heard stories of a woman known as the Queen of Winter. She’s a dragon who brings winter wherever she flies. The dragon named Azyra, the Queen of Winter. She must be mad to make it snow with such ferocity.

But fortunately, I can cross the river without having to swim. It is frozen down to the dirt. But the snow does not make it easy to get back to my cave. Even I can barely see past my own hand. It is very tempting to take a left and go home, but I must return to the cave first. I nearly lost all sense of direction with the snow, and as I leave the forest behind, everything looks the same. The cold seeps down into my very bones. It’s hard to deny the chill. I don’t stop, just keep going. Even though my skin has been hardened by my exile, it feels the icy burn of the blizzard.

I reach the mountain and force myself to go on. It’s just a little farther now. The steep slope of the mountain makes it hard to get a footing within the snow that continues to blind me.

I do not want to lose sight of the secret passageway that leads to the cave we found so long ago, but I can hardly tell the signs and nearly miss them as I find it.

As I find the entrance to my cave, I collapse with relief once I get inside. Then, an overwhelming sense of loneliness creeps down to my very heart. Blue-Eyes is gone, and her family along with an old friend are dead. The very thought saddens me. Then, I realize I am not alone. I pull out my sword and ax as I climb to my feet. Hidden deeper in the cavern, someone stands with a weapon drawn. I can smell them. I can hear their breath and their quick heartbeat. Who dares sneak into my cave?

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Broken Souls – Chapter 47

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Lura Syllana

I’m in time for the sermon as I head over with Chalia. We take our seats within the Cathedral Hall and join the other strays near the back. But my heart stops dead in its tracks when I see a man I recognize dressed in the most over-the-top, rich robes I’ve ever seen. The robes themselves are white with gold trim and crimson embroidery. Gold chains and ropes hang from his neck with the largest white crystal I’ve ever seen. He has one of the tallest, gaudy hats ever with more crimson on it. But it is his face that makes my heart cease its beat. I’ve seen that face before. That fancy mustache with the sharp little goatee and a grin as wicked as it is charming. Those eyes that glow blue seem to have a sinister guile under the surface. He approaches the pulpit and greets the hall with that rich and welcoming voice. The same one I heard him use towards Zaralraden at the brothel just before they head off into a room. Now, the allegations about him seem to carry more weight.

Yet his voice seems to carry a somewhat mesmerizing charm to it. His words drip with desire and make you want to listen to every word. He’s so convincing and seems so sincere and passionate. It is like I have to not only hear him out, but also follow his word and take it as truth. He speaks about our duty to the church and how we need to stay vigilant in the Light and do our duty. He speaks about sins and their consequences. Specifically, the sin of speaking out against the church and the blasphemy of other religions and their desire to hide the truth. The lies spread by those who want to destroy the Light are what he speaks about. He warns us about temptations to listen to these lies and falsehoods. He says we need to confront them and destroy them. Take no quarter to heretics and show no mercy. We need to purify the pagans at all costs. Convert them or show them the Light’s mercy. He talks with so much conviction. I don’t understand… I know this man to be a hypocrite and a pervert. He is not worthy of the title, and yet I want to do as he says. I want to follow his word. It’s as if his sermon puts a spell on me to listen and follow. I close my eyes and breath to regain my own thoughts.

I look around to see that everyone else seems to be within the same trance that I felt. Everyone except Ralodan. He doesn’t seem convinced at all. In fact, he doesn’t look happy about what the High Father is saying. His arms are locked across his chest and his normally smiling face is transfixed into a frown. His eyes shift and lock onto mine, and I feel as if he is trying to tell me not to listen. He looks around at everyone else and seems to grow fearful.

The sermon finally ends, and we are released for supper. The Accepted and Novice strays all gather around the same table. All talking about the High Father’s sermon, but the tone has all changed. They aren’t talking about the allegations or his hypocrisy. It’s as if that was all forgotten. They only talk about his sermon, and they all agree with him. It’s like they have been mind controlled to forget their mistrust of him and follow his words. They talk about seeking out those pagans and forcing them to either convert or lock them away, even killing them if they have to. What is going on?

“Do you all honestly believe the Light wants us to destroy those who don’t stand within its shine?” Ralodan asks. He looks as surprised as I feel. “Do you truly believe that Akrasiel, the angel who speaks of mercy, love, compassion, and forgiveness, wants us to kill all the nonbelievers?”

“Well, I mean… I don’t know,” Haemyish says, averting her eyes.

“I can assure you all that the Light is about peace and love, not bringing death to the nonbelievers. This High Father speaks lies,” Ralodan says a little too loud. Several tables quiet down around us.

“Ralodan! You can’t say such things. That’s blasphemy,” Chalia says, in a hushed tone.

“Is it though? We were taught by Terel that the Light wants us to spread love, not hate. Does he not share with us the words that were spoken to him by Akrasiel himself? The High Father speaks about what the Light wants, and yet he himself hasn’t even met the Angel Akrasiel. There is something not right about all of this,” he says with eyes burning full of righteousness. Those eyes travel around to meet the faces of everyone listening. Ralodan’s words seem to strike at the heart of everyone. No one says anything, and shame seems to wash over them. He sees this and softens his tone. “He is right about one thing. We have to remain vigilant against those who call themselves pure and would demand that we follow them, as spoken by Terel.”

Whispers and confusion seem to spread to those who are sitting nearby, but those who sit among us seem to nod in understanding. It is clear out of everyone listening to Ralodan’s words who has received the notes for they nod, acknowledging him while the others seem to look around, confused.

Strangely, Ralodan’s words make me feel as if I should listen and follow him as well. But the feeling they bring is far different from that of the High Father. He fills me with a warm light where the High Father’s words make me feel angered and stir my emotions into a fire. A fire that demands to burn. Why is this?

After supper, Chalia goes to Damaris’ and she’s not back until late. She must’ve been gone for hours. Maybe she did some labor? She looks a little disheveled, however she wears a genuine smile. “Everything okay?”

“Yes, of course. Why wouldn’t it be?” she asks.

I shrug. “I don’t know. You were just gone for quite a while. What did Damaris keep you there for so long?”

“Oh, we just always have so much to talk about. Especially books. We could go on and on for hours,” she says as she practically falls like a feather on the bed. She’s acting rather more elated than usual. Odd. I shrug it off and continue reading the rest of the book.

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Broken Souls – Chapter 46

Icy Mountains of Aratheon

Bothvar Beorcolsson

The man with one eye sits chained to an iron throne, imprisoned in a dark, mysterious tower that has risen in a city of gold, but the gold itself has become tainted and cold. Ice now takes over the once warm haven. Sitting atop the throne is a man with long horns and a chilling stare with a wicked smile.

I shoot up from my sleep, drenched in sweat. Who was that on the throne? What was that the throne of? That man in the prison, I have seen him in other dreams. What does it all mean?

“You, okay?” I turn to see Amalasontha giving me a worried look.

I nod. “It was only a dream.”

“Be careful, Bothvar. Dreams are rarely only dreams.”

I shake off the terrible feeling I have. “We should get going.”

She only shrugs. After we wake up Blue-Eyes and get ready we eat and continue on in the darkness. Neither says a word, but I can feel their pain. Tonna did not deserve to die like that. The Bone Eaters need to be wiped from this land. They are a plague and are better off dead.

The night is dark, and the sky is dominated by clouds, cloaking the moons and stars. The dark makes sight limited. And the cold seems to creep in as we travel. The snow doesn’t help with how deep it is. But neither of us complain.

We just keep moving forward at a steady pace. I had to slow down for Amalasontha. It is surprising how slow the Valkyrie and Bone Eaters are. I do not know how they have survived this long with such delayed reactions and pitiful speed. Surely, I haven’t become that much faster to merit such an enormous gap between us. It couldn’t have been more than a hundred days at best, right? I wish I would’ve kept a better track.

We break for food and fire to warm. I prepare a fire by chopping down a dying tree and lifting the entire tree up on my shoulder, dragging it to our little campsite. Amalasontha just stares at me with complete shock.

“You’ve grown strong, Beorcolsson. I don’t know how you have grown so strong, but it is impressive. Despite that, you do not have to cut down an entire tree to feed a small fire,” she says. Leave it to a woman to care about how many trees I chopped down. Why does it matter? The tree was dying anyway.

I decide to ignore it and chop the tree into little pieces before I start a big fire. I hear Amalasontha mutter under her breath as clear as if she spoke the words out loud. “Men… Everything always has to be grand.”

“Women…” I mutter loud enough for her to hear. “Always complaining.”

She looks up at me in surprise. Her eyes narrow. She lets out a sigh and looks over at Blue-Eyes, who huddles close to the fire, hands wrapped around her knees. She is still so sad. Death seems to be something all three of us share now. I look over at Amalasontha and I notice the pain in her eyes as she too seems to huddle, mirroring Blue-Eyes. “I am sorry about Tonna. She deserved better. But she fought bravely and has earned an honorable death.”

The woman looks up at me with hard eyes. “There is more to life than honor and death. Tonna was too young to die. She deserved to live. You men seek death as if it is the greatest honor one could have, but there is no honor in death. Only the end of the journey. You’re foolish if you think otherwise. Only service in life brings honor upon your death.”

“Perhaps. But at least we can avenge our dead and bring honor in life,” I say in a bitter tone.

“And what will that achieve? It’ll only continue the cycle of killing and death. I know I want the Bone Eaters to suffer more than we’ve already caused. But the more I think about it, the more I’ve come to realize that it’ll only continue the cycle. They killed our daughters, so we want to kill their sons. What do you think will happen when we follow through?” she asks.

“What if you wipe them out entirely? If no one is left alive, then they cannot seek revenge. That’s what I did to the fiends in the mountains who killed Blue-Eyes’ family. I killed every last one of them, and I intend to do the same to the elves who killed Thorkel.”

“Did it bring them back?”

“No…”

“Are you going to kill all the elves?” she asks.

“No… Not all of them deserve to die. Only the ones on that ship,” I say.

“And what about their children? Will you kill them too? Surely, they will want to exact the same revenge you will exact on their fathers.”

“They have that right to do so, I suppose.”

“And what about the elf who killed your brother? Would it make a difference if you knew his father was murdered by a Kraken?” she asks.

“He wasn’t.”

She raises a single eyebrow. “Are you so sure?”

“I… no. I suppose it could’ve happened.”

She gives me a sad smile. A tear wets her eye. “As much as it pains me, Tonna is dead. I love her dearly, but it will not do her any good to kill every Bone Eater I find as much as I want to. Instead, I chose to do what she thought was right. I choose to help a lost cub find a new home, just as you are doing now. Killing them will only make me like them. I’m tired of killing. Of war. Of battle. My hands are soaked with the blood of all those my blade has ended. I see them in my sleep when I can get any. Heed my advice so you don’t follow my path. It only leads to pain and suffering.”

Neither of us say another word as we sit here in silence and eat. Soon, we begin our journey again as the day arrives. It does not bring the sun with it; instead, clouds continue to rule the sky. But the mountains are in sight. It is not far.

It takes us much of the morning to get there, but we arrive and start our ascent up the mountain.

“Shouldn’t be far,” she says, and she’s right. We reach a wide path that takes us into a conclave of yeti. They watch us wearily, but there seems to be familiarity when they look at Amalasontha. She walks forward, towards a yeti woman. I can hear what she says when she speaks with her hands. She tells the yeti woman that we have journeyed a long way to bring a child who lost her tribe home.

The yeti woman looks up at me and Blue-Eyes and she nods. She tells Amalasontha they will take the child and raise her as their own. I set Blue-Eyes down and kneel before her, bringing our eyes together. I tell her with my hands that she needs to stay here with them and they will be her family now. This will be her home.

Tears well up in her eyes as she tells me she doesn’t want to stay here. She wants to go with me and be a part of my tribe. My heart breaks a little more as I tell her she can’t. She must stay here with her own people. With them, she will be safe. She argues with me and tells me she will be safe with me. I shake my head no. I tell her where I go, death follows. That is no place for a child. I tell her this isn’t goodbye. I promise her that we will see each other again. We are just parting ways for the moment. She says she understands. I smile and tell her to be strong and grow into a fierce warrior like her father, Longhorn. Be proud to be his daughter. Be fearless like him. She nods and hugs me. She tells me she will be the fiercest warrior there is. I smile and tell her I know she will.

We finally part ways. I take one last look at Blue-Eyes as the yeti woman takes her in.

“You did the right thing,” Amalasontha says once we leave the mountain.

“It wasn’t easy,” I say looking back at the lonely peak. “It never is.”

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Broken Souls – Chapter 45

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Lura Syllana

I can’t hold back the tears as they stream down my face. He… He didn’t leave me by choice. He was forced. He… He was sent north and… It’s all my fault. He got caught because he was with me. I get to the dorm and collapse on my bed and cry. Light, please protect him. Bring him back to me. I was all wrong, and I thought things about him… I wanted him dead and I might just get what I wished for.

“Is everything okay?” I look up to see Chalia walk in and shut the door behind her.

“Please, I wish to be alone right now,” I say, burying my head back into my pillow.

“I can’t allow that. You are hurting, and I won’t let you hurt alone. Please, tell me what is wrong,” she says as she sits down at the end of my bed.

“I can’t,” I say into my pillow.

“I think I already know. You worked at a brothel before you came here, didn’t you?” she asks as my heart stops in my chest. I pull myself up from my bed and try to wipe away the tears. They won’t stop. “You were with him. You loved him. I’m assuming he loved you back. Didn’t he?”

I look into her eyes and see no malice. Just concern. “Please, don’t tell anyone. If people knew what I did before this, they would judge me poorly for it.”

“Relax, I will not tell anyone. I promise. Just talk to me. Tell me what happened,” she says.

I sniff the snot leaking down my nose and wipe away the river of tears, tearing my gaze from Chalia. “After my entire family was sold into slavery and I was forced to run away, I snuck into Low Town and met a woman named Madame Faralene who saved me from some unsavory characters. She took me in and gave me a job serving tables and a place to sleep. I was desperate for money to buy my family’s freedom, and one thing led to another. I took customers for some less dignified work than serving drinks.”

I take in a deep breath and let it out slowly to calm myself as the memories try to fight their way to the surface. “Orym was my first customer. He was kind and gentle. He treated me with respect and compassion. I couldn’t help it. I fell in love with him, and I believe he felt the same way about me. The first night together, we spent much of it talking. Eventually, I felt so comfortable with him that I gave him my virginity. And then he vanished. He never showed up after that. It was like he never existed. I thought it was all some big lie. I believed he never cared for me at all and all I was to him was some twisted conquest.”

The tears won’t stop, no matter how many times I try to wipe them away. I look back up at her to see a wide-eyed, gaping expression. “You… You poor girl. That’s so sad. Come here.”

She pulls me into her chest and holds me as I sob. I completely give up on trying to hold myself together. “At least now you know the truth. He didn’t leave you by choice, but he was forced to leave. That means he still loves you.”

I pull myself away from her to look into her eyes. “But it is my fault he was sent to the north. What if he dies because of me? I could not bear that.”

She shakes her head. “None of this is your fault. He chose to go to the brothel, and he spend his time with you. Not only that, but I believe this entire concept of not being able to form attachments and relationships is completely absurd. The heart wants what it wants. Who are we, or the church for that matter, to tell it otherwise? You loved him, and he loved you. What is more divine than that?”

“You really think so?” I ask.

She nods. “Of course, I do.”

“Thank you, you’re a really good person and a great friend.” I lay my head down on her lap and she softly combs her fingers through my hair.

“I only do and say what I think is right,” she says.

I take in a deep breath and let it out. After talking to her, it feels like a weight has been lifted off my chest. The truth of what happened to Orym brings some relief, but it also brings more burdens. I will continue to pray for him and his safe return. May the Light protect him and keep him safe.

Chalia helps me to pull myself together before I head off to see Damaris. I manage to hold my emotions in while she welcomes me into her study and has me take a seat across from her. “So, how are you doing, Lura?”

“Honestly, I’m a lot better now that I’m here. Things have really improved a lot,” I say, which is all completely honest and puts a genuine smile on Damaris’s beautiful face.

“That is great. I am happy to hear that. How are your studies coming?” she asks.

“Great. I am pretty close to being ready to take the test to ascend to level one.”

She smiles. “I’m not surprised. You are a bright young woman. I know you’ll ascend quickly through the ranks. Are you making friends well enough?”

I nod my head. “Yes. Quite well, in fact. Chalia and I get along really well as well as Ralodan, Biremeril, and the new girl, Melyis.”

Her smile brightens. “That truly warms my heart to hear. I was hoping you’d form bonds of friendship with the three of them in your class. Do you have any concerns, questions, or things you’d like to talk about?”

“Actually, yes. I do. I uhhh… Well, you see, we’ve all noticed my book that I received, along with Chalia, Ralodan, Biremeril, Charinva, and even the new girl Melyis… Well… There are notes that only appear in the textbooks we look at, and the notes are all the same, claiming secrets about the church. It leaves us assuming they are written by Terel himself. At least that’s what we all concur.”

Her smile relaxes a bit. “I see. Honestly, I suspected the four of you would see such notes. I have also seen them, from the time I first picked up the book. Have you found the books they reference?”

I shake my head. “I’ve been told another stray has them.”

“You don’t have to name any names. Perhaps once they finish with them, you and the others can have a turn at them. When you finish reading them, come back to me and we can talk about them,” she says.

I nod. “I do not understand why this has to be such a big secret. Why can’t everyone know what this secret is?”

“I think you’ll find that answer when you read the books. Read them, and I’ll answer any questions you have,” she says.

I sigh and nod. “Can you at least tell me why I can see the notes?”

“I’m sorry, Lura, but that too is answered in the books,” she says, giving me a sincerely apologetic look. “I hate that it has to be this way, but that’s how it is supposed to be. Terel has his reasons for doing what he did, and they will become clear to you once you have read his books.”

My eyes go wide. “So, you’re saying he is, in fact, the one who wrote the notes?”

She smiles. “You got me there. Yes, he is the one who wrote the books and the notes. I’ll also tell you much of what is written is from his own conversations with the Angel Akrasiel and the High Mother, Mathienne herself, can attest that Terel spent much time with the Angel of the Light. Just a warning, what you read from his books might not be easy to swallow. It is a lot to take in, and you’ll need time to process it,” she says.

“What could possibly be so significant to cause such secrecy and shock?” I ask.

“That is something you’ll have to find out on your own when you read the books,” she says.

I nod. “Okay…”

“Now, unless you have anything else you’d like to talk about, I suggest you go get ready for the sermon. Unfortunately, I will not be able to make it,” she says.

I nod. “Okay. Thank you for talking to me, Sister Damaris. I appreciate it.”

She nods with that sincere and warm smile. “Of course. I only wish I had more time to give to you and the others. But the Light wills what it wills.”

I nod and bow my head. She gets up and lets me out, hugging me before I leave.

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Broken Souls – Chapter 44

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Bothvar Beorcolsson

The ax comes slicing through the air hunting for my throat. My hesitation is going to be the death of me.

By the gods…

He is slow. I move out of the way of his slash as easily as if a newborn baby threw it. I jump to my left as another one bursts through a shrub with his ax slamming down from over his head. My sword goes through his neck. I heard his footsteps getting closer. He is just as slow as the other one.

A smile forms on my face and fear shows in the skin wearer’s eyes. I charge him as he holds his shield up to defend himself. My ax breaks through the shield and slices him in half. I’m covered in his blood as it sprays out like a geyser while his torso and legs fall apart.

Three steps away, another one charges into the opening and my blade seeks its throat and finds it, severing it without him realizing he’s dead until his head is separated from his body.

The snow is red as I bathe in their blood. I lose myself in my all-consuming hunger for death. I feel unstoppable.

I’ll kill them all. Every last one of them. I’ll hunt each one and collect their heads. Three of them stop as they see the death and carnage in my past. They trade looks as my ax chops while a fourth one charges me. I spin away from his pathetic overhand chop while my sword twirls in my hand to a reverse grip and stabs him in the heart through his back.

By the time the three others decide to charge me, I’m already inside the first one’s guard my sword swipes up, slicing him from balls to head as the separate halves fall from each other, leaving twin waterfalls of blood spraying out.

The second Bone Eater, who wears the upper half of a bear’s head like a helm, entire face contorts in horror. I make sure it’s permanently contorted that way as I sever his head from his body. His bear helm falls in a separate direction from his head. The third gets his iron sword up in time so I can slice through it with my own sword, my blade digging a trench from his shoulder all the way down to the opposite hip.

I leave a trail of mangled Bone Eater bodies as I hunt them down. Reveling in death and carnage. I’m completely covered in their blood. My blades hunger for more death. I get lost in this primal hunger to kill.

But when I turn to look around, horror takes over at what I see. The Valkyrie have been spread out fighting an overwhelming number of Bone Eaters. But what makes my stomach churn is the sight of Tonna lying on the ground with a Bone Eater’s teeth digging into the flesh of her neck. Blue-Eyes cowers in fear as she clings to a tree.

The next thing I remember was my blades dismembering the corpse of the Bone Eater. I’m surrounded by his dead kin. Others of his kind flee in terror as I roar out, but they can’t run from me. I chase them down and slaughter every last one of them. The last one begs for his life. I make his last moments a complete nightmare. He dies from a thousand cuts.

As the rage slowly cools down in my blood, I drop to my knees and howl out the last of it. I clean my blades off in what little white snow I can find before I find the others gathered around the dead body of Tonna. Amalasontha kneels over her, clenching her limp hand as she weeps for losing her daughter. Blue-Eyes cries as well as she looks down at the dead Valkyrie that I once considered a friend. The forest floor has become a graveyard of dead bodies. Mostly Bone Eaters, but some Valkyrie lie here and there. “My daughter. My baby girl. Don’t leave me. A mother is not supposed to live beyond her child. This is not how it is supposed to be.”

Another person I cared about died because of me. If I wasn’t so lost in my hunger for death I would’ve been here where I could’ve saved her. It is my fault, and I will remember her along with Thorkel, Varin, Styrkar, Saksis, Longhorn, White-hair, and Short-Snubs. The list of lives I failed to save continues to grow. Why do the gods continue to curse me?

She looks up at me. Fear and grief in her eyes. “What kind of man are you? Even asking, I know the answer… You’re the bringer of death. But I cannot blame you for Tonna’s death. No. Not you.”

Her eyes travel across the forest of corpses. I follow her gaze to the sight of the bloody mess. I hate them. “I will make the Bone Eaters pay. They will all suffer!”

“They have suffered. None who attacked left with their lives,” she says as wolves stalk out from the forest and begin to feast on the corpses of the Bone Eaters. “Fetch our dead and bring them home. We will not let the wolves feed on them, but they can have the Bone Eaters. I hope they leave none of their wretched taint in our woods.”

“You can’t trust the Wolves,” I growl, glaring at them. If it wasn’t for Blue-Eyes, I’d have half a mind to kill them, too. The Wolves have always been the enemies of the Kraken Clan. They betrayed us and killed my forefathers long ago. I hate them.

“Do not let your blind hate lead you to the wrong path. The Wolf Clan was never your enemy,” she says.

“And yet the wolves only watched as we fought the Bone Eaters. They only come now that the fighting is over. Cowards,” I say, gritting my teeth.

“Perhaps,” she says, turning back to me as her daughter’s body is carried off. She reaches out to her. Tears stream down her blood-stained face. She puts a hand on one of her warrior’s shoulders. “Tell Dasyra and Amalgunda to prepare them for the funeral rituals for when I return.”

“Where are you going, mother?” the Valkyrie asks.

“I will honor my daughter’s last wishes and help the yeti child find a new home. I’ll lead the man to the other yetis to the south,” Amalasontha says. The younger woman warrior nods, puts her fist against her chest, and runs off with the rest.

I go to Blue-Eyes who stares off behind the fleeting Valkyrie soldiers. My hand rests on her shoulder. She looks up at me with wet eyes. It’s becoming harder and harder to see the differences between her people and mine.

I pick Blue-Eyes up and put her on my back. “Let’s be off then.” “I don’t know about you, but I need to clean and change or I’ll freeze to death. There is a cabin to the south of here on our way to the mountains. We can stop there, clean, and rest for a night before going on,” she says. I agree, reluctantly.

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Broken Souls – Chapter 43

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Lura Syllana

A knock on the door pulls me out of the book. The door opens as Damaris enters with a girl behind her with black hair and warm honey skin. She has some pretty, bright blue eyes. I’m not sure if they’re brighter than mine or not, but she must have a lot of potential. She’s clearly uncomfortable because she keeps shifting her weight from one foot to the other, fidgeting with her hands while her eyes keep shifting up from the floor.

“Hello girls, I hope I am not intruding, but Chalia, since you’re already showing Lura around, I was hoping you’d be willing to help, Melyis. I just brought her here, and I hope you three can become friends and help her.” Damaris’s eyes seem to say something else to Chalia, but it goes over my head. I wonder how Chalia became a stray? How did she meet Damaris? How did this new girl, Melyis, meet her? Was she too arrested for using magic without a permit?

“Yeah, that’s fine. I don’t mind. Do you, Lura?” Chalia asks.

“No, not at all,” I say.

“Good, I was really hoping that would be the case. That way, Lura, you have someone you can work with on earning level 1 and so on,” Lura says.

“That is a great idea, the more the merrier,” I say with a smile.

“Good,” she then turns to the other girl and gestures to me before Chalia. “This is Lura. She’s new here as well and will help you out with the class work. And that’s Chalia. She’s also a Novice but has a little experience under her belt, so you can go to her with any questions you have.”

She gets a nod from the girl and then turns back to us. “Lura, I’d like to sit and talk to you about how you’re doing with everything, you as well, Chalia. Lura, can you meet with me later today after, say, lunch?”

I nod and receive a smile with a nod in return. “Good, and Chalia, will you be able to meet me after supper?”

Chalia nods, and Damaris gives one in return with a subtle smile. Then she turns to the other girl. “We’ll set up a time to talk and check up on things after you get situated. For now, there’s a lot I need to take care of, so I’ll leave you in the hands of Lura and Chalia. Do not be afraid to come to me for anything. Now, I apologize for being so abrupt, but I must go.”

The girl gives a nod before Damaris takes off, leaving the girl standing there in the doorway, still nervously shifting from one foot to the other while she avoids making any eye contact. Chalia clears her throat. “Well, come on in then, and shut the door.”

The girl reluctantly walks in and shuts the door behind her, as she fidgets. She’s a beautiful girl, but she’s so timid. “Well, don’t just stand there. Take a seat and make yourself comfortable.”

The girl looks around before she takes one of our desk chairs.

“Welcome to the strays. Glad to have ya, so what’s your story?” Chalia asks.

“Me? I… I guess there’s not much to say. I’m nobody,” she says, avoiding making eye contact.

Chalia lets out a sigh. “I see we have our work cut out with you. Clearly, you’re not nobody. Damaris wouldn’t put so much time and effort into you if she didn’t think you were worth it. Now, stop with that attitude and get some confidence. You clearly have a lot of potential; I can see it in your eyes. Now, tell me what led you to the church,” Chalia demands.

“I… I have nowhere else to go. My mother and father passed away because of that awful glimmer. I didn’t know what to do. I had no home, but Damaris found me and offered me a place here, so I took it,” she says, her eyes shifting uncomfortably.

“I’m sorry about what you went through. We’ll take care of you. You’re one of us now,” Chalia says as she gets up to comfort the girl, rubbing her back. But then she opens up the back of the girl’s dress, revealing scars down her back. “In the name of the Light, what happened to you?”

Melyis recoils and pulls away from Chalia, quickly trying to cover up. “It’s nothing.”

“It didn’t look like nothing. You were abused. Weren’t you?” Chalia asks.

“No… I… I… He didn’t mean to. It’s not as bad as it looks,” Melyis says, holding herself while turning away from us. “It’s not what you think.”

“Melyis, who did this to you?” Chalia asks.

“Chalia, maybe we shouldn’t push the matter. She’s clearly uncomfortable,” I say.

“No, she needs to talk about this. She has to work through this,” Chalia says.

“It was my fault… I… My father, he always got mad when I spoke out or didn’t do as I was told. I was bad, and I deserved it,” she says, tears forming in her eyes.

“No. None of it was your fault. You didn’t deserve to be abused like this. Your father had no right to leave these scars. He is the one to blame. Not you,” Chalia says, pulling Melyis into her embrace as the poor girl weeps in her arms. “Don’t worry, you’re safe with us. I promise you; no one will hurt you here. At least none of us will. We’ll look after you.”

After she calms down a bit, Chalia tells her all that goes on here and everything she needs to know. At least the gist of it. The same stuff she told me when I first came here.

“So, what dorm are you in?” Chalia asks.

“I’m down the hall with a girl named Silanlina Morrowforce,” she says.

“Oooh… That’s… I can see why Damaris brought you to us. Silanlina can be a bit of a… Stuck up crown bird,” Chalia says with an apologetic look. “Sorry, you have to stay with her. Hopefully, it’s not for long and you can move in with one of the strays. I know Charinva isn’t far from achieving level ten so she’ll eventually move into the Accepted quarters and you can move in with Ochilysse. She’s not the easiest to deal with, but she’s a lot better than Silanlina, that stuck up…”

“Nobles…’ I say with a sigh.

“For now, you’ll just have to hang out with us and the other strays. We’ll introduce you to them at lunch. There’s quite a few, so don’t feel like you need to remember their names all at once,” Chalia says.

“On that note, we should probably get going to class. You’ll meet Biremeril and Ralodan there. Fellow strays,” I say with a smile. “Just try not to let Olizara drive you crazy. She’s the teacher, if you can call her that. She’s an Accepted who is of no help and leaves us to work on our own. So don’t really let her bother you.”

She nods as I grab my book and say goodbye to Chalia before leading Melyis to class. I manage to snag us seats in the back row next to Biremeril and Ralodan. Biremeril doesn’t look at me, but Ralodan gives me a smile before his attention is drawn to Melyis. “Who’s she?”

“She’s the new stray Damaris just delivered. She brought her to our room and we’ve been helping her. Her name is Melyis,” I say.

Ralodan gives her that smile of his that makes me a tad bit jealous. “It’s nice to meet you, Melyis. I’m Ralodan, and this is Biremeril. We’re strays too.”

Olizara walks in with her usual icy contempt. She notices Melyis right away. “Ooh, look, another fresh face. Oh, joy. What’s your name, girl?”

“M… Me…”

“Speak up, girl. I don’t want to have to walk back there just to hear you!” Olizara snaps. My fist clenches as Melyis flinches.

“I’m… Melyis,” she says, with her eyes down to the floor.

“For Light’s grace, girl. You surely must be a low-born for how pitiful you are. Now get yourself a book in the cupboard over there, although I’m sure it’s a waste of time. You won’t last long,” she says with eyes as cold as ice. I glare at her, fighting the overwhelming urge to yell at her for being such a cunt.

Ralodan gives me a warning look and I take a deep breath in, letting it out slowly. Olizara continues. “Well, you all know what to do. If you have any questions, then you’re not very resourceful and won’t make it very far. Read the book, and if you still don’t understand, read it again. Read it until it makes sense. If it still doesn’t after you’ve read it ten times, then you probably won’t have a place here. Incompetence is not a trait we embrace.”

She is such a bitch. What is her problem? I can’t stand her. She’s just like every other noble. So entitled and arrogant. I hate her and the rest of them. They all need to be put in their place.

The rest of the class is unbearable. Olizara is constantly on a power trip, wielding it to hurl insults hidden in sophistication. I hate people like her. Nobles… I despise all of them. If it weren’t for their hypocrisy, this city wouldn’t be in such a miserable state. Greed, pride, and entitlement make for awful leaders. It’s because of them most of the people live in tents and have to beg for water. It’s because of them that only the rich can afford to wield magic. I hate them all. I know I shouldn’t, and I am trying to work on the hate and anger that resides inside me, but it is so hard. I truly want to follow this path. Damaris makes me feel like I can be redeemed. She makes me feel that I am worth redeeming. And the fellow strays make me feel at home. Like a sister. I like it here, for the most part. Of course, there are always people like Olizara and Chaetris, but I will not let that bother me. Not this time. I won’t screw this up. I’m going to become a Sister Priestess and from there, I’ll find a way to free my family.

As we are finally let out, I notice Melyis going up to the cupboard with her book. I walk up to her. “Hey, are you coming to lunch?”

“Yes, I just wanted to get a different book. This one has a bunch of writing in it,” she says.

“Keep it, trust me. I’ll explain later,” I say. She looks at me with a curious yet weary gaze, but she nods and keeps the book.

She joins us on our way to lunch, and I slow the pace of the group so everyone else in class is out of earshot. “She can see the writing, too.”

Melyis looks up at me as Ralodan, Biremeril, and I exchange looks of our own. “You mean, your books have the writing too?”

“It is a little more complicated than that,” Biremeril says.

“What do you mean?” Melyis asks.

“Someone put a charm on the books so that the writing presents itself to certain people. I’m beginning to think Damaris recruits us based on whether we can read the texts,” Biremeril says.

“How would she know, unless…” I say as a thought occurs to me.

“I don’t think she’s the one who put the spell,” Biremeril says, connecting the dots of my thoughts.

“Then how would she know?” I ask.

“I don’t know, but I find it more than a coincidence that so far, from what I can tell, the four of us can all see the writing, and we were all recruited by Damaris. I have an assumption that most of the rest of the strays can see them. Also, I have been thinking about the other books. I think we were looking in the wrong place. Those confession booths were not there when Terel was alive,” he says.

“You’re right. I already know where the books are at. They were originally hidden in the basement.” I spit out.

“Right… How did you… and what do you mean originally hidden in the basement? Are they not there?” he asks.

“Well, I also know that Chalia and Charinva can see the writing in the books. And no, they’re not there at the moment. Charinva has them, and according to Chalia, she has been hogging them,” I say.

“That makes sense. She always has a book with her. I never really took the time to notice what she is reading, though,” Biremeril says as he scratches his chin.

“I’m sorry to interrupt, but I don’t understand what you are all talking about,” Melyis says.

I turn to her and meet her weary gaze. “There is writing in Terel’s book that you just got that only certain people can see it for whatever reason. The writing talks about a secret within the church, and we’re trying to figure out what it is.”

Her eyes go wide. “Really? What is the secret?”

We all shrug. Ralodan speaks up. “None of us know yet. We still haven’t got a hold of the books mentioned in this one.”

“But at least we know where they are. We just have to convince Charinva to share,” I say.

“I have a confession to make,” Melyis says and we all look at her. Her eyes drop to the floor as she mumbles something I can’t hear under her breath.

“That’s okay,” Ralodan says. He heard her? How? She looks up at him, showing clear relief. “It’s easy to learn to read. I can teach you. It won’t take long.”

“Really? You are so kind. Damaris was teaching me when she had free time, but she is so busy, and I don’t want to disturb her,” she says.

“It’s okay. She does a lot to look out for us and the people, but lucky for you, I’ve got plenty of time,” Ralodan says with his perfect smile and even winks at her. Seriously? I feel my gut wrench. Am I jealous? Why am I jealous? I will not jeopardize all I have here for a man. Even if he has a really amazing smile and such soft hair. He seems like he has a good heart on top of that. What am I thinking?

I swear, there is something about him that makes my mind all hot and hazy. Is it just me? I look over at Melyis and she seems to be awestruck by him with those puppy eyes. Give me a break… Oh, that’s not fair. Especially knowing what the poor girl has been through.

We enter the lunch hall and join the other strays once we get our food. Ralodan introduces Melyis to the rest as Chalia joins us. Throughout lunch, I cannot keep my thoughts off this mystery within this book.

What could it mean? Could it really have been written by the author? What could the secret be? So many questions and so few answers. We need to get those books. I need to read them.

“Looks like they’re calling for a congregation within the cathedral,” Haemyish says, an Accepted stray with dark amberish-coco skin and curly black hair that fluffs up. “The High Father will give us a sermon.”

“When?” Chalia asks.

“One hour before supper,” she replies.

“Oh great… Another sermon by the High Father…” Ochilysse says with a long-exaggerated sigh.

“What’s so bad about a sermon from the High Father? Shouldn’t we pay attention to what he says?” Melyis asks.

“You’ll see soon enough,” Chalia says while devouring her food.

“They’re not exactly boring or anything. He has a rather flare about the way he speaks. A quite enigmatic man. He’s just…” Haemyish says but is interrupted.

“He’s a hypocrite,” Voborrie says, not mincing her words.

“Allegedly,” Haemyish says.

“Allegedly, he is a pervert,” Voborrie says before scooping up a fork full of veggies.

“There have been allegations against him of sexual misconduct,” Haemyish says, picking at her food. “Several women have reported that he has coerced them into sexual activities that are not suitable for the church.”

“He raped them,” Voborrie says rather bluntly.

“He hasn’t been proven guilty of it and until he does…”

“He is the High Father. He has the power to silence them. There’s not much any of us can do to stop him from doing whatever he wants,” Voborrie says.

“Well, regardless, he hasn’t been found guilty, and until he is, he will remain as the High Father,” Haemyish says.

“The only reason he was not found guilty is because he went after women who were whores. They worked in brothels before they became servants of the Light. He convinced the people in power that they were lying and that they were the ones who came onto him, but he’s a holy servant of the Light and would not give in to such temptations,” Voborrie says.

“Reminds me of that Paladin,” says Illianaro, a man who has dark cocoa skin and is one of the Accepted.

My eyes lock on him. “What Paladin?” “Oh, there was a Paladin a while back… I think his name was Orym? He got caught sneaking into brothels and was punished for it. They sent him up north to the human savage lands, poor bastard. Those pagans will surely mean his death. They might be weaker than us elves, but they are ruthless savages.” My gut clenches in pain, and I feel sick as the heat drains from my face. I get up from the lunch table, taking my tray and dumping what’s left of my lunch before I place it down and head back to the dorm.

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Broken Souls – Chapter 42

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Bothvar Beorcolsson

The footsteps pick up as they get closer. They’re nearly on top of me. I bang my weapons together sending the clang of metal howling along with a mighty roar. “Bring it on. It’ll take a lot to kill me. Just ask the antler creatures if you can still find one alive.”

Suddenly, figures crash out of the forest and surround me. Spear points are held out against me as I see white fur-clad warriors wearing helmets and wielding the typical round shields we all use, but they wear no sign of who they are. They’re just painted white. They have me surrounded. I twirl around and snarl. If it is a fight they want, I’ll give it to them.

“Halt,” it doesn’t surprise me to hear a woman speak, but whether it is a Valkyrie, a Wolf, or a cannibal still remains to be seen. Women fight just as much as men in most of these villages. But I doubt it is the cannibals. The Bone Eaters would not stop to talk, they would’ve attacked.

“Why do you carry a yeti?” One steps forward with what little is exposed by the helmet covered in leather. Her voice sounds familiar and I believe she’s a Valkyrie.

“That is my own business, Valkyrie!” She sniffs. It was just a guess, but I must be right as she cocks her head up. “And will you show your face, stranger?”

The woman removes her helm and my eyes go wide as I recognize her. It doesn’t feel that long ago when we met here in these woods, when I was just a boy. But it was so long ago. When Thorkel was alive, leading our little crew of friends into trouble. I remember her being taller. “You are… Amalasontha, are you not?”

Her eyes narrow as she takes me in. “Who are you, stranger? Remove your hood.”

I pull back the hood of my cloak. She searches me but still does not recognize me. Have I truly changed that much? I reach up to stroke my long and wild beard. It has grown much since I left. It is nearly down to my chest and it has not been exactly well groomed. “What is your name, stranger?”

“I am Bothvar, son of Beorcol,” I say.

Her eyes widen, then she steps closer and looks into my face. “You… You could be him, but you do not look like him. Your skin… It is dark. Much darker. It has a stony gray color to it. Why is that?”

I look down at my hands and it has been such a long time since I have really taken notice of my appearance. My skin looks the same as it did yesterday, but compared to her, it looks a lot darker. It’s drifting closer to the yeti’s black onyx skin than to a Northern human color. “Must be from either the mushrooms I eat or the cave water I’ve been drinking. I’ve been living in a cave in the Northern Mountains since the end of the raiding season during my self-exile.”

“We have heard of your disappearance, if you truly are who you say you are,” Amalasontha says as she flips her head to the side to get a string of her blondish, whitish hair out of her face. It has grown longer since my wedding.

Behind her, one of her warriors steps up to Amalasontha’s side and takes her helmet off as well. She looks familiar too. She brings her hand to her chin and rubs it. “His eyes seem to be the same as Bothvar’s. His hair is dirty and has grown wild, but I think it’s the same color. But he is a lot bigger than Bothvar. Much broader shoulders, and his arms are much thicker. He’s a lot taller than Bothvar.”

“I am Bothvar Beorcolsson,” I snap back at the girl and suddenly my eyes go wide as I recognize her. “Tonna? You cut your hair. It was longer at my wedding.”

Her eyes narrow suspiciously. Then I step up to her. “I remember the first day we met back at the river with my brother, Thorkel, and our wives, Arni and Asfrid, along with Vog, Solmund, Griotgard, and Skardi.”

Her eyes go wide. “It is you. For the love of the gods, that was so long ago. What are you doing here with the yeti cub? What has happened to you?”

“Blue-Eyes’ family was killed by these fiends with antlers that stalk in the night. The yeti call them Shadow Stalkers. She needs a new home. Her father, Longhorn, told me they came from the Southern Mountains and there are more there. I am taking her there.”

“You speak with the yeti?” Amalasontha asks, her eyes widening.

“Well, that’s debatable. I speak with them as well as I can. They talk through their hands and bodies. It is easy to get wrong and can be confusing,” I say, looking down at Blue-Eyes as she sits there, clinging behind my leg, looking at them.

Tonna bends down to her and uses her hands with her words. “Do not fear, young one. You are safe with us.”

Blue-Eyes reluctantly releases my leg and moves out from behind me. She hesitantly walks towards Tonna.

“You know their language?” I ask and this time, I’m the one surprised.

“We have had many dealings with the yeti to the south. They are not that different from us,” Amalasontha says.

“Yes, I learned that to be true,” I say with a nod.

“And how did you come to befriend the yeti?” she asks as Tonna pulls out a ration and hands it to Blue-Eyes. The little yeti wearily looks at it and then up at Tonna before returning to the food. She quickly snatches it out of Tonna’s hand. She sniffs it. Sticks her tongue out and tastes it before she eats it. Then she looks around and snatches up some snow to hand back to Tonna. Tonna smiles and takes the snow from Blue-Eyes.

“I was hunting and came across a bear. The bear and I fought, and I came out victorious. It was a good fight. I went back to get a sled and the Shadow Stalkers, as the yeti call them, were trying to steal my bear. They are tall, thin, dark creatures who dislike the sunlight and only come out in the dark. Monsters with a head like a skull of a deer with antlers on top. Their bodies are blotched in dark hair with sickly decaying skin. They scream like the dead and have teeth and claws as sharp as swords. They’re wickedly fast and crazy strong. I thought I was going to have my last fight after they swarmed me.” A bitter chill goes down my spine, and I try to shake it off. Just thinking about those fiends makes my skin crawl. “Then Longhorn, the yeti father, came roaring out of a cave nearby and together we defeated the fiends. I was badly injured and passed out. When I woke up, I was wrapped in fur in their cave. White-Hair took me in and healed me with the mushrooms and the cave water. I salvaged what I could of the bear and shared it with the yeti, discovering they had cubs. A yeti woman I’ve called White-Hair; Blue-Eyes, the little girl cub here; and Snubs, a little boy cub. That felt like a long time ago before winter came in full swing. I spent most of the winter spending time with them, learning their ways, and trading with them. I grew quite fond of them, and we developed a strong bond. That is until the fiends overran and killed Longhorn, White-Hair, and Short-Snubs. Fortunately, Blue-Eyes got away and came to warn me. I was too late to save them, but I avenged them and killed the Shadow Stalkers. All of them, including the ones at their cave.”

“I see. The yetis have a strong sense of kinship, and they view gift giving as a sign of respect. You give to them and they’ll give back. I am surprised a man like you could put aside his lust for a fight to befriend the yeti. Most men would hunt their kind,” Amalasontha says with much distrust in her tone.

“Bothvar was always different from the others,” Tonna says with a smile. “The day we met, he and his now wife were trying to prevent his brother and friends from harming a little hare until I intervened.”

I laugh. “Such a long time ago, that was. I was a foolish child.”

“But you still have the same heart,” she says as she looks down at Blue-Eyes who walks over to her and picks at her boots. Tonna leans down and picks up Blue-Eyes and the yeti girl wraps her arms around Tonna. “Now, mother, we should help find this child a new home. That is what our mother would want. This little cub, like us, is a child of the forest. It is the right thing to do.”

“I don’t know, my child. Our responsibility is to defend our home. We cannot leave it unguarded,” Amalasontha says.

“Then let me go. I can lead Bothvar to the other yeti,” she says.

“I don’t know…”

I hear many footsteps in the distance from the East. Blue-Eyes hears them too as she clings to Tonna. I turn to face them, pulling out my sword and ax.

“What is it?” Amalasontha asks, as she puts on her helm and draws out her weapon. Her sisters in arms also prepare to fight.

“Many footsteps from the East are heading in our direction,” I say, gritting my teeth.

I step before the others as a scream erupts from the trees. The woods are thick, but I can just make out something between tree trunks. Shapes dart between trees as they stalk forward. That’s when I see antlers.

The fiends have followed us here. I’ll kill them. I’ll kill them all!

No. Not fiends. They’re far too short and slow. Men with antlers on their helms. Not all, though. One is wearing what looks like a boar’s head, but I can see that it is hollow with the eyes of a man inside. They must be Bone Eaters.

It’s a raid then. Maybe a few hundred. But they have no honor. They eat the flesh of other men and women. Despicable.

I’ll kill them all. My rage boils over while I let loose a roar that makes even the trees flinch and charge at them. However, I hesitate as the first Bone Eater storms into the opening. He is wearing the face of his victim, stretched over his own face. The hesitation gives him enough time to slash his blade out at my throat…

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Broken Souls – Chapter 41

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Lura Syllana

We have to take classes to learn about other cultures, mostly humans and dwarves. We’re also taught their languages. How to read and write their written word. It’s a lot of long, tedious work. Especially for those who haven’t quite mastered our own language. Thankfully, I’ve got a good grasp on it.

Human history is wrought with war ever since they just appeared here, chopping trees down to ignite a war between our primitive Wood-Elven cousins. Fortunately for them, the dwarves were already in conflict with the elves and allied with the humans.

Of course, these humans later settled in High Water, the capital of the Southern Kingdom, which is now ruled by King Vandil. However, there are two other groups of humans to the north. Saxons, and those called Norsemen, or Northerners. The two groups don’t get along and often fight each other. That is until the Southern Human Kingdom rose up to claim the other two kingdoms. The last great battle was fought between them, where King Vandil defeated King Teowulf of the north.

We learned a bit more about our primitive ancestors, the Wood Elves, as well and their beliefs. They practice an ancient druidic magic that allows them to communicate with life. As fast as one can cut them down, they can grow trees with their magic. They believe the forest is a living thing. And the druids can grow what they need, harvesting bows, arrow shafts, staves, and anything else made of wood from the trees they can grow. Their magic allows them to twist the trees into what they need. Of course, that is why it is such a huge offense to cut down their trees. They can also cleanse water, heal the sick, and provide food from plants

I spent most of the night reading until I fell asleep. I read over two-thirds of the book, including the notes in the margin. The book itself is about Terel’s own journey to discovering the Light’s grace, including the time before Angel Akrasiel arrived when things were dark after King Volodar renounced the throne and left. The city of Isyelnaes and the Volodar Elven Nation itself fell into despair. Idols were worshiped. Those that the apostles of Akrasiel denounced as false gods were worshiped by others. However, the lands became ruled by corruption by the Elder Gods and demons sought to conquer. They weren’t the only threats they faced. Creatures of the void hungered to devour everything. Fiends of darkness tried to block out the sun and envelop the land in darkness.

These were hard times. Even the old gods that the High Elves used to worship did not come to save the people. But even at the darkest hour, Light shone down from above as angels came to our salvation. Akrasiel was in the lead. He brought hope with him. His love and compassion restored the elves and gave them strength.

But the false gods wouldn’t give up and sought to destroy the angels. War arose between the angels and the false deities. The angels did all they could to protect the mortal elves and defeat the false gods. Terel himself became one of Akrasiel’s disciples along with Riluaneth Waeszeiros, Colvardonn, Anfather, Vedana Oddheart, Amaranthae, Nostra Longswitch, and Mathienne Naesalor. Together, they fought alongside the angels while learning from them.

But even they weren’t enough to turn the tide. In the darkest hour, Akrasiel shone brightly and made the ultimate sacrifice. He pulled the false gods within his Light and erupted, destroying them and himself in the process. There is still a good chunk left I haven’t read yet. So, there is more to the story after the Angel Akrasiel died.

However, in the notes, it questions things. Circling false gods, leaving the question, are they false? What is that supposed to mean? He wrote, if the angels are real, can there be other gods? I don’t know, nor do I understand.

There are also notes that provide specific details about the events and draw attention to certain things, such as Akrasiel’s death and the words used to describe the false gods like demons, elder gods, creatures of the void, and fiends of the darkness, ending with a question mark asking if there are more. The notes themselves bring up more questions than they answer. If this is Terel, why is he questioning his own work?

It really makes me believe that this isn’t Terel and is instead someone else who asks the questions. Some kind of heretic or something.

As Chalia wakes up, I ask if she wants to wash dishes for a couple of hours and she shrugs but relents. We head down to the kitchens after Chalia helps me get an hourglass from the Sister of Novices, a rather tall skinny woman named Arnarra, who has a face that seems to be perpetually tired. She was a pleasant woman, though. Dark brown hair with somewhat creamy beige skin.

We grab breakfast with some of the other strays real fast before getting to work in the kitchens. A short, pudgy woman in a red dress with a white apron gives me an earful about how things are done in the kitchens before I can get to work on the mountain of dishes. The dishes are never-ending. Every time I wash a plate, two more take its place. The mountain of plates grows taller and I furiously scrub and rinse as the dishes are taken from the rack and put into use. After a few hours, the mountain stops growing and I can finally get it under control. When I finally finish the remaining dishes, my time conveniently comes to an end.

My hands have shrunk into prunes as Chalia and I head back up to our dorm. Chalia and I both immediately grab books and start reading. After a while of silence, I turn to her. “Can I ask you something?”

“Sure,” she says, not looking up from her book.

“When you were at my level and you received one of the books by Terel Glarespell, did your book have any writing in it?”

She stops reading, closes her book, and looks at me. “Let me guess, your book has writing in it that appears to be written by the author, and it seems like you’re the only one who sees it. Am I right?”

“Yes, so you did have one,” I say.

She nods. “It seems like all of the strays do, or did.”

“Really? That’s odd, but I can definitely confirm that Ralodan and Biremeril can also see the writing. What does it mean? Who all can see it? Have you found the books mentioned?”

“Slow down. I have no idea what it means. I do not know who can see them and who can’t or why, and I still haven’t gotten the books myself, but I know who has them.”

My eyes go wide. “Really? That’s a relief. Ralodan, Biremeril, and I went looking for them after we got out of class yesterday and couldn’t find them.”

“Let me guess, you went to the booths where confessions are made in the Cathedral, didn’t you?”

I nod. “And before we could really dig, we got caught by Mother Chaetris.”

“Really?” she asks as her eyes go wide. I nod. “What happened? Did she punish you for putting your low-born hands all over the sacred marble?”

“Something like that. She gave us extra hours of labor. She’s a real cunt,” I say.

Chalia bursts out laughing. “Yeah, that’s why I told you to steer clear of her. She hates low-borns. If it were up to her, none of us would be allowed in the church. She’s exactly what notes warned you about.”

“That’s what I said! But Biremeril got mad that I would even speak against her or say the things I said about her.”

“Well, Biremeril had a rough life and has reason to think that way,” she says, looking away from me.

“Yeah, Ralodan explained it to me. It’s terrible, no one should ever have to endure slavery. It is truly atrocious.”

“It truly is. I can’t understand why slavery is legal. It’s the most hideous thing ever,” she says, her hand clenching into a fist. She takes a deep breath in and lets it out. “By the way, don’t go back to the booths to look for the books. They are not there and they were never there. That’s the new place of confession. There’s an older place of confession in the basement where they used to hold meetings in secret to tell truths. I believe that’s what he meant by the heart of the cathedral. But there’s a secret lever that opens up a little hidden storage chest where the books were stored.”

“So, who has the books now?” I ask.

“Charinva,” she says.

“Oh, that makes sense. Is that why she always has her nose in a book?” I ask.

“Nah, that’s just who she is, but she won’t give them up, saying she needs them to look into something. She won’t talk to any of us about it,” Chalia says. “It is really starting to piss me off.”

“How many people know about it?” I sit up in my bed.

“No idea. I talked to Damaris about it and she told me to come talk to her once I have read the books, so it’s clear she knows about it but won’t tell me anything. It’s frustrating. Charinva won’t even hand over one of them.”

“Who all within the strays have read them?” I ask.

She shrugs. “I believe only the Accepted so far, aside from Charinva, but I don’t know. Everyone is reluctant to talk about it, fearing it’s heresy.”

“Do things always have to be this complicated here? I feel like now that I know there’s this huge secret, I need to know what it is,” I say, flipping through my book.

“Tell me about it. I’ve been dying to get my hands on those books forever,” she says.

“What could Charinva be doing with them? It’s hard to believe she hasn’t finished them yet. I swear she seems to read nearly every waking hour.” I let out a sigh and lay back down on my bed, finding where I left off in the book.

“No kidding. That’s why we call her page-turner… Well, I need to finish this. I’d like to test for the next level soon,” she says as she returns to her own book.

I sigh and start again where I left off, reading about the hardships the disciples had to face after the death of Akrasiel. He talks about a prophecy that mentions Akrasiel being reborn from a virgin. Why is it always about virgins? And how does that happen?

There’s a note here that asks a simple question. Do all beings experience reincarnation? That would certainly make heaven rather pointless if we are just reborn again and again. Wouldn’t it?

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Broken Souls – Chapter 40

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Bothvar Beorcolsson

Blue-Eyes won’t eat. She lays in the corner and rarely moves. It is as if she has lost the will to live. It saddens me to see such a lively and merry creature lose all the joy and happiness in life. I do not know what to do. If only I could’ve gotten there sooner. Maybe I could’ve saved them. I began to consider them family and to lose them makes my heart bleed in pain. There must be something I can do for Blue-Eyes. Seeing her like this reminds me of when Thorkel died. She looks the way I felt. Lost, confused, and full of sorrow.

I spend the day trying to get her to eat. I search my cave for anything to help her. I find the old clothes I wore when I met the yeti. They’re all covered in my blood. I go to burn them only to find something in the pockets. A pendant. The same pendant I found during the raid that killed my brother. The one with the large crystal inside it. I was going to give this to my wife, Arni. I take it, clean it and hold it in my hands, rotating it.

As much as I wish I could, I cannot bring her family back. But… maybe I can provide her with a new one. Longhorn mentioned that they traveled north, leaving behind many yetis in the mountains to the south. They said humans encroached upon their lands and would hunt and kill their people, but surely Blue-Eyes would be better with her own people than to slowly die here with me. I’ll think about it. I take the pendant and hang it around my neck.

I walk out of the cave into the long, cold winter that seems to never end. Even though the cold no longer bothers me, this lack of sunlight snuffs any hope inside me. My skin has darkened much and has almost become iron. Pain has no hold over me anymore. I have long ago lost track of the days, but it feels as if it should be spring by now.

Looking down the mountain at the little speck of my village, I can’t help but think about my own family and people back home. They are always on my mind and in my heart. I hope they are well. I pray to the gods to keep them safe. Especially Fridgerd, the mother goddess, Siv, Thunar’s wife, and Frida, the goddess of love and fertility. Those are Arni’s favorites. Surely, they will look after my wife and child. She has been a faithful believer.

I wonder how my father and mother are doing. Does my father still grieve? Does he blame me for Thorkel’s death? What about my siblings? Are they well? Do they blame me? I miss them, as strange as it sounds. Thormar and his stupid logic. He was always strange. Always collecting maps and books even though I know he can’t read. What good is a book, anyway? You can’t use it to fight. Nor can it be used to hammer metal or cut wood. It would make good food for the fire though. But he seems to find some value in those books. Father never read, but mother always has many books. Svala too reads, but she is a girl and that is expected. But Thormar is a man. He should spend more time training and building his strength, not wasting time with these nonsense books.

At least Bodvar sees reason. He’s a bit wild, that is true. The boy is fearless. He’s always climbing things and getting into trouble. He is so much like Thorkel in many ways. The thought saddens me. I look back at the cave to where the hammer sits, still unmoved. I’m beginning to think it is impossible to lift that hammer. It must be magic. Maybe you must be a god to lift it. Or there is some kind of thing you must say or do. I do not know. There must be a way, but I cannot figure it out. It is like the hammer does not want to be picked up. Or it is as heavy as a mountain. I can lift tree trunks like twigs and yet I cannot move that hammer an inch. I’m ready to give up. Am I not worthy? Will I ever be?

What if I am incapable of avenging my brother? How can I bring my family peace if that elf still breathes? How can my brother rest while his killer still lives? But surely, he feasts in Valholl with the gods, right? He died honorably. As honorably as anyone could. That surely should earn him a place in Ornulf’s hall. If not, I will kill the elf so my brother can feast. I’ll earn back my honor. I’ll follow my brother’s dreams and sail west with Thormar, since he’s always wanted to do that as well. I’ll become the strongest warrior and be the most glorious Viking ever. I’ll sail to shores unknown and discover treasures our people can’t even dream of. All in my brother’s name, and when we meet in Valholl and feast in Ornulf’s hall, I will tell him all about it. I will make sure his children are a part of the glory and earn much honor. I will see them become strong, just like their father.

I return inside where Blue-Eyes lies, staring at the wall. I hear her soft cries and feel her pain. I say I no longer feel pain, but I was wrong. The pain my body endures is no more bothersome than a mild itch, but the pain I feel in my heart at the loss of these yetis is far more painful than any cut or bruise my body could ever endure. It was as unbearable as the pain I felt when Thorkel was slain in front of my eyes. I think love is the most unbearable pain there is.

Seeing Blue-Eyes like this is proof that I must do something for her, and the only thing I can think of is to take her south. It will be a long journey, especially in winter. It might take me many days and nights, or more depending on how bad the weather is. I can run most of the way at a steady pace with her on my shoulders if I pack lightly, but I won’t be able to wear the armor. That would slow me down too much. But I can take my ax and sword. I’ll pack up all the smoked fish I have and a few bags full of mushrooms along with a wineskin of glow rock water. I can put on my bear cloak. Thankfully, I could add a hood to it. It is settled. In the morning I will take Blue-Eyes south to her people.

After a short and restless sleep, I arise and pack what I need. I attach my blades to my belt and the food I store in packs I’ll have to carry. I wrap the spare cloak I brought with me from home around Blue-Eyes and the bear cloak around myself. Then I pick the little yeti up and sling her around my back, keeping her hands around my shoulders as I wrap my arms around her legs. Thankfully, she holds on.

Then I run. I run down the mountain at a steady pace, sloshing through the snow. Even with the little yeti, the bags of food, and my weapons, it does not feel like I carry much. The yeti is not heavier than the trees I haul up the mountain. I start my journey in the dark. It is not too cold out. Of course, I never feel all that cold anymore.

It is still dark when we reach the bottom of the mountain. I go east for a little before going south. I hope the river is frozen over. I do not want to cross the bridges to the northeast. They are usually guarded by the Southern Tyrants who have taken Chillshore. They do not belong there. Chillshore was always our city. One day we’ll take it back.

I run south on the peninsula to the east of our village. To the east of here on the same peninsula is the Builder Clan. A strange lot they are. Peaceful Northman. Sounds like a contradiction to me, but no one seeks to fight them because they are some of the best builders around. Shipbuilders, house builders, blacksmiths, and much more live in their village, and they are always willing to trade finished goods for raw materials as long as they get a cut of them for themselves.

I do not tire, not when I keep a steady breath. My muscles have been hardened into tempered metal. This journey is nothing. I feel no pain. The snow is a bit annoying; I always sink. I finally reach the river and it looks pretty frozen solid. It is as wide as a small lake, but there is a point at the southeastern tip of the peninsula that is its narrowest. I find it and hesitantly step on the ice.

It groans. It looked thick enough. I take another step, putting my full weight on it, and the ice breaks, causing me to fall through. It is only as deep as my knees at this point, but still, being wet is something I hate. I can feel the cold of the water, but it does not bother me. I guess I have become too heavy now. The ice will not hold me. I’ll have to wade through the water. I set Blue-Eyes down on the coast, pull out my ax and chop at the ice. One whack makes the entire river crack open.

I toss my ax to the other side and it slices through a tree, causing it to fall. I wrap the bundles of food with the flint around my sword and hurl it like a spear. It slams into the ground and stands there.

Then I lift the little yeti above my head and walk into the water, pushing aside the ice. The river continues to get deeper and deeper until I’m up to my neck in the freezing water. My body feels the cold water, but it does not bother me. The ice makes me feel alive. It tingles my skin with prickles. I take another step forward and go completely under the water. I do not panic and continue forward, doing my best to hold my breath and keep Blue-Eyes above the water. Another step and I’m deeper as the bottom half of Blue-Eyes gets wet. I struggle to breathe as I continue taking steps forward to a flat bottom.

My lungs strain for air in the ice-cold freezing water. It continues to prick my skin as I walk further. Finally, the next step brings me up. A few more steps after that and my head pops out of the water and I take in all the air I can. It feels cold, but I embrace it.

We make it to the other side and I stop to grab my things. I decide to stop here to make a fire and dry off. I take the tree and chop it up into nice logs and build a pyre, piling it up on top of each other like a log cabin. Then I get some dead wood and chop it up into little kindling. With my flint, I start the fire. I take some time to get the deadwood to catch because it’s frozen and when the flame hits it melts and becomes wet. Finally, little by little, the fire burns.

The pyre slowly catches flame. I pull my wet clothes off and hang them on a nearby branch while I dry off. Blue-Eyes also sits near the fire. I have to bundle my feet up in the cloth of one of the sacks. It takes much of the morning to dry my clothes. I suppose I could use a little rest even though I don’t feel in the slightest bit tired.

I take out a mushroom for each of us and Blue-Eyes reluctantly eats it. By the time I get back to running, I’m feeling the odd effects of the mushroom and Blue-Eyes must be too as she fiddles with the fur of my cloak. These mushrooms make me feel a connection with the trees. It’s like I can hear their heartbeats as if they were alive. I can smell the pine and hear the birds that stay behind in winter chirping. I can also hear what I believe are wolves stalking in the distance. I don’t know why I know it’s the wolves, I just know. They linger just outside my sight but trail me. Keeping watch.

I know these wolves are in league with the Wolf Clan. I saw it with my own eyes. They scout for them and hunt with them. I’ve heard stories that the Earl’s grandson and granddaughter, Baldric and Siv, can speak with these wolves. They’re twins of the Earl’s daughter, Asny. I remember them being at my wedding. And I’ll never forget the All-Clan Meeting when Thorkel tried to play a prank on the Wolves, only to be met by Baldric and Siv along with a pack of wolves. If they are in fact with the Wolf Clan, they must know I’m running through the forest. I suppose they have no need to fight or interfere with me seeing how I’m not heading towards their village, but they’re not the only clans in these woods. I must be careful. The Bone Eaters linger in these woods. They’ve long been outcasted by the other clans for their cannibal ways. Both the Bone Eaters and the Wolf Clans are to the east of my path.

The Valkyrie clan is also here, and these are their woods. I remember that all too well from when I first met Tonna and her mother, Amalasontha. A clan of all women. As crazy as it sounds, they are fierce warriors. I do not wish to fight them. But I am in their part of the forest and they do not take kindly to trespassers. They may not be able to stop the wolves from scouting these lands, but I am not a Wolf.

Far to the south and west of the mountains I seek is the clan of the late King Teowulf. His brother rules there with the King’s widow, and both have much honor. The Giant Clan lives far to the northeast, but I am not exactly sure where the Eagle Clan lives. 

I have to turn east since I’m dangerously close to the road. The road is always full of Southerners, and I do not wish to fight them right now. I stop dead as I hear the footsteps of people approaching. Then, I set Blue-Eyes down and pull out my sword and ax. I then hear many pairs of feet make their way towards me. Who is it? If it is Bone Eaters, I’ll kill them all. And if the Wolves want a fight, they’ll get one, but it doesn’t smell like a wolf. 

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